Lately so many memories (childhood, teenage, twenties, early marriage (pre-children years), thirties (child-bearing years), early forties) have been FLOODING into my mind. It is amazing – overwhelming at times, exhausting at times, sad at times, funny at times – always incredibly therapeutic. I have also been dreaming vividly! I am sure all of this must be related to the state of self-reflection I have been in lately. Blogging is also bringing things to the surface (although I am still somewhat guarded and pretty general in my writing). I have no doubt giving up alcohol has also helped my mind receive and think about so much more lately. As of today, I have gone 49 days (7 weeks) without drinking any alcohol. It is been a long time since I have gone an entire month without drinking any alcohol, but I can now say that about the month of June 2014! Finally, as I mentioned in my previous post, I am reading a ton. Right now I am reading Drink: The Intimate Relationship Between Women and Alcohol, by Ann Dowsett Johnston. It is part personal memoir, part very thorough research about alcohol and women. It is a fascinating book, and reading it is probably also a major factor in getting me to think back on my own personal 43-year history, in a very deep way lately. Needless to say, my mind is so active right now! It would probably be helpful if I started writing about some of this in more detail, but for now I wanted to record how I am feeling – overcome with memories, emotions, thoughts, and feelings – and it really is a good thing. I feel very alive. I feel like I have a lot to accomplish. And I feel confident about my chances!