Today is my Day 100. I am excited and have now pledged to do 180 Days! It has not been easy but I did it. For those of you thinking about it, Belle’s 100 Day Challenge (http://tiredofthinkingaboutdrinking.wordpress.com) really can work! Most of my daily emails to Belle were short one-liners but today deserved a lot more to be said. So I decided to also convert it to a blog post. Here is the my 100 Day email I just sent to Belle:
“Alcohol Free today 8/20/14 – Day 100! Thank you so much Belle! There were many times I was tempted but having made my 100 Day pledge got me through a lot of days, because I am a person who really does like to keep my commitments. It actually makes me smile that this worked! Having pledged to you, a stranger across the world, a written emailed promise, to not drink for 100 Days, and then to email you every day to say, ‘Yes, I am still alcohol free’ really made me feel accountable and kept me from drinking in so many tempting moments. So here I am at Day 100! I have gotten through an entire summer and lots of events and vacations without drinking; I don’t think this would have had happened without this 100 Day Challenge. And I have learned that I do not need alcohol to have fun or to make me feel better in times of stress or sadness. Alcohol really does not help. I am deciding to live alcohol free for a while and maybe forever, but I am simply going to take it one day at a time. I got to Day 100 and now I will go for 180. I am clear-headed and determined and proud of myself for making a decision for myself! And I feel really good! I still have a lot of work to do on my personal goals. I guess I realized also that I can’t blame drinking wine for all of my problems. My house is still cluttered; I would like to be more punctual; I would like to become a morning person instead of a night owl; I would like to not be such a procrastinator; I would like to reduce my online time; manage my time better and get more sleep every night. I guess I thought wine caused me to do all these things but I still do them 🙂 But removing alcohol from my life is going to really help with all of these goals and more! I am a work in progress as we all are. But I have accomplished a lot and would like to keep going. At the Day 100 mark, I am more calm, patient, and present with those in my life. I appreciate the simple things in life so much more. I am living more in the moment and not worrying so much about tomorrow.
So yes I would like to do 180 Days. Here is my pledge tailored to my own thoughts and the moments most challenging for me: I’ve done 100 days alcohol free, and I know my life is better. It’s not always easy, but I am moving in the right direction. I’d like to continue going in that direction. And I’d like to see what happens next. I will not drink for 180 days … not even if my husband, family or friends drink, not if I am going to a wonderful party, not if I get bad news about my health, nor if a family emergency occurs. No matter what. Because I want to see what happens next. And as every day passes, I am realizing I don’t need alcohol to have fun or to make me feel better in times of stress or sadness. I am realizing I like living alcohol free. Via51214”
To add a bit more, every morning when I wake up I think, “Today is the first day of the rest of my life.” I have mentioned this often as the theme of this blog. I am “on my way” today – Viatoday.